How do you forgive yourself for loving what undid you?
In stillness, I slipped beyond my mind,
lured by his honey words and sinful bribes.
Within Hell’s hush, I thought I captured him,
yet found myself enslaved by lustful vibes.
Burned by eyes that turned me inside out,
I drowned amid beasts of masculinity.
Each breath became a covenant of pain,
a whispered hymn to his depravity.
Haunted by boyhood ghosts, I denied the truth,
deceived by his beauty and strong embrace.
I let him chain my ruin to his will—
a lover marked by everlasting disgrace.
—H, still bound to the bargain
