What happens to a boy when his first heartbreak was his father?
I saw the world as if viewed through your eyes;
you shone through ev’ry smile and all my lies.
With each word I uttered, I heard your voice;
no matter how hard I tried, I had no choice.
Men I didn’t love penetrated my room;
while strangers consumed me, you filled my gloom.
With one caress, I let them take your place;
I screamed in the dark when I saw your face.
They whispered false love into my young ears;
for a brief moment, I felt no more fears.
Released from the endless torment of the truth,
hope filled my dead heart that they may be you.
Men saw me as just something to plunder;
you left me diseased to pine and wonder.
They tore my clothes for their own sensation;
you didn’t save me from their violation.
—H, still waiting for the man who never came back
