How do you forgive yourself for loving what undid you?
In stillness, I travelled beyond my mind,
lured by his honey words and sinful bribes.
Within the walls of Hell I captured him,
and turned him toward my lustful vibes.
Outside my instincts, I believed his lies,
burned by his eyes that turned me inside out.
Surrounded by beasts of masculinity,
I faced my own private nightmare of doubt.
In unfaithfulness, I trusted my dead heart,
deceived by his beauty and strong embrace.
Haunted by childhood fears, I denied the truth,
and allowed him to enchain me with disgrace.
—H, still bound to the bargain
